When you cant conquer your emotions. Yeah one of those crazy days.
I am trying really hard ever since my BFN to control my emotions and feelings but nothing seems to be helping although I know that I really want to stay calm and not be hopeless… I am feeling a bit mad specially today and right now.
So on my birthday when I had the BFN… my husband’s brother’s wife decided to “tell me about something special”. Yeah, she’s pregnant again. Which means I will be further mistreated by the in laws. Not only that – I will be left to feel disgusted about my womb and my luck. 😢
Even the first time she fell pregnant, it was the week my 4th IVF had failed into a chemical. I just don’t know how to face this constant “boo” on my face.
My in-laws always say “she’ll never be pregnant” and lucky for them – its been proven right all these years but I still cant give up…