A week from today…

A week from today when I was 36+6 on 31st October 2017, my waters broke suddenly while I was out shopping for maternity pants! Imagine the coincidence!
We rushed back home, had dinner and packed our hospital bag lol. I had planned to pack my hospital bag that very night and this is what I was doing. Only difference being that I was in labor already!

We got to the ER and my OB was informed. We were admitted to the L & D department and I was checked. I was 1cm dilated and did not have any contractions. I was induced and within the next 2 hours my contractions started. After 6 hours of contracting, I was nearly brought to my knees and thats when I gave in to take the epidural! What a miracle of a drug it is!

After 6 more hours our Baby Mohammad was delivered healthily and weighed about 5 pounds. I am absolutely filled with love and cry almost everyday thinking of the past I faced. My in laws are really nice now and I must say my faith in my Lord’s mercy and blessings has heightened. The Lord really does show His strength and knows when we are about to give up. With His power He aids us and elevates us and it was through Him that I became When you cant give up and now a mother after all the failures and difficult days.

Have faith and continue on your journeys with complete trust in His plan for you. May everyone succeed in their journeys and they lead beautiful happy lives.

My baby is taking up all my time and I might not post at all. However, wordpress emails reach my inbox so I shall always be notified if anyone contacts me or checks upon us.

Love

When you cant give up

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Revealed!

So I had not been able to post our crib wall pictures at 30 weeks or 32 weeks, I am posting at 33+5 because our wall decor was lost in the mail and instead went to a completely different city after which our house street is named. Who could have ever imagined that happening? Luckily, the mail was tracked and we have it and even more luckily it is not damaged or broken. Phew. Now we are planning to put it up this weekend or maybe the next, depending on our moods hehe. However, I am attaching a picture of the decor which will REVEAL the gender!
  

 This was the box of the decor. I just could not resist not sharing this cute printed box. We ordered customised letters of the baby’s name with them and they did a truly magnificient job. They had a 100 different options to choose from and it was truly hard to pick one which was our favorite!
         

                          REVEALED! 

Yes! Its our darling litle boy! I have shuffled the letters of the name for now but I just had to reveal the gender to you all! Let me know what your gender guesses were! 

Finally, below is the crib and wardrobe picture for him and some other decor which is already up!

We only have 4 books for now but Mommy and Papa shall be buying more for the little one, Lord willing. The letters will be stuck just behind the crib. The sheets and cushions are still packed away as I am very paranoid about dust accumulating hehe. I hope you all liked the setup. The complete crib picture will be shared after 36 weeks, Lord willing.

Pregnancy wise I am still doing very well but since last weekend my feet have started to swell up terribly and I am getting used to the swollen feet for now. Just going to be positive about it all because I am ‘When you cant give up’.

Love for all my lovelies and prayers for all.

Xx

28 weeks. 10 short ones to go.

So it is Me, the hopeless case of all the 15 doctors I visited in the last 6 years to get pregnant, who is posting this. I hit 28 weeks yesterday.

In my last post when I was 21 weeks, I wrote that I would be visiting my OB that week, I felt I was going in for the anatomy scan but I was not. I did not know a special appointment had to be made for that. 😑 So I was disappointed that I could not have the scan then but we got an appointment for a month later and finally at 24+3 we had the anatomy scan. I was so scared when the scan was in progress and especially seeing the baby’s heart pump so fast made me feel my own heart would stop any minute due to the surmounted fear I was feeling. I was just not able to breathe. I realised at that very instant how weak we humans are, just when this very heart stops beating a person is no more. I felt entirely grateful to my Lord for giving this beating heart to my child and making this child for us. This very soul and life for our empty lives to become joyful.

So now I am 28 weeks and just ever so ready to become this baby’s mommy. I have been keeping myself busy preparing the house for the much awaited arrival. Cleared out a lot of junk and made space for the little one’s things. We have bought a crib and a wardrobe and set them up in our room. We wont be making a nursery yet as we want our little one as close to us as possible but I will be decorating the wall behind the crib, which will begin in 2 weeks, Lord willing. Images shall be shared and the gender will be revealed through the pictures 😉

Finally, today I drank my very first cup of red raspberry leaf tea. I have read a lot about its benefits in tightening the uterus bed muscles for labor and post delivery recovery. If you are interested then start 1 cup a day from 28 weeks and increase to 2 at 32 weeks. I hope it proves beneficial and really does help.

Hope everyone is keeping well. Love to all.

20 weeks on 5th July. Late update

Sorry my lovelies for being late but I had made a post and by mistake it went to the drafts whereas I thought I had published it. Well now I am 21w4days but I reached the half way milestone and now I am finally believing the reality. After years of infertility and heartbreak, being pregnant is not easy at all. It makes it even tougher to accept it and enjoy it.

I will be going in for a scan and check up next week FINALLY. We had planned to go at 24 weeks but I guess its okay to go at 22 weeks, I just want to see my baby kick and turn.

I hope everyone is pursuing their journey to happiness with patience and succeeds. I pray for all the struggling ones to succeed and not be disheartened.

Pray for us and I shall post about my OB visit next week, Lord willing.

❤ you all

16 weeks…

So I am 16 weeks today, Praise is for my Lord. I have not gone to my OB since my surgery at 13 weeks to drain the swelling from the PIO shots and my husband read up on the internet that getting too many scans is not safe for the baby so he is not planning to take me for a scan until I am 24 weeks. I really do not know how I will wait for 8 more weeks but for my child’s health I’ll bear this and keep missing seeing him or her. On a positive note, I am starting to show a bit now and my breasts have grown quite a bit so its pretty reassuring. So now its confirmed I wont be able to know the gender for another 8 weeks so no shopping until then. ☹

Oh well, I am just grateful I am finally able to look forward to this after years of heartbreak and trying. I pray all the ladies who are reading this succeed in their journies very soon. Just dont give up, keep at it. Every new step in your treatment or discovery of underlying issues is a step closer to your goal. I clearly remember when Dr.Gorgy bombarded me with tests worth thousands of pounds, I was about to break down but I had to hold myself strong and just try and do what was best. Although I didn’t gain any benefit from his testing but the testing of my husband’s sperm fragmentation (after completely having failed Dr.Gorgy’s treatment which I had pursued for a year and involved all sorts of crazy medication and IVs) helped me out and brought me here. Be willing to take all sorts of ways to achieve your happiness and you will get it. I had to convince my husband to go the double donor way; I had to be really open minded although if any of our parents find out they’ll probably flip lol but that doesn’t matter since this very little secret and miracle held us together and has given us so much of happiness even before coming into our arms. Praying for you all. 

13 weeks on 17th May.

I reached the 13th week of my pregnancy on 17th May and it was going to be the last week of my PIO shots. However, it didnt turn out the way it should have.

Ever since I started my PIO shots I had small lumps develop in the areas I was taking the shots. To settle them I used to use a cold pack prior to administering and a heat pack later. It used to settle the lumps a bit and although they would still be there, they would not be as big when I wouldn’t use the packs at all.

So when I reached 11 weeks, 1 of the lumps became super big because I neglected using the packs. I had my inlaws over for 2 weeks so hence the carelessness. I also was quite used to the PIO shots by then and my lumps were behaving well so I didnt worry too much. The lump became big and I started to use the heat and cold packs multiple times in a day and it would become small but get big all over again. I cannot even explain the height of ignorance here. I mean a lump not going away is alarming but I knew it was the shots and my shots were gonna end so I was fine and bearing it all. Even the PAIN.

Then in the middle of my 12th week, green pus started to come out. I still didnt bother telling my OB about it despite having an appointment at 12 weeks. The pus continued for 4 days until I became 13 weeks and thats when it alarmed my husband! He immediately rushed me to the Emergency and the Drs there told us on spot that I needed a surgery!!

I was panic stricken. I couldn’t even think about a surgery while being pregnant after years of infertility and heartbreak. My husband and I were devastated. The surgery was to be done under general anaesthesia which had a small chance of putting my pregnancy and baby at risk. The pain I have seen before getting this child meant I couldn’t even take a risk of 1% on my tiny child of 13 weeks! We made 100s of phone calls. To my parents, to his mom, to our OB, to his close cousin who lives nearby and to the Dr at Serum, Athens. My parents called their close doctor friends and his mom to her doctor relatives. There were confusing replies from all. The adults in family and relative doctors advised against general anaesthesia and the OB, Serum Dr. and emergency Dr. said general anaesthesia did have a risk but it would be needed to operate the painful surgery. We were left confused. 

While we waited 6 hours for my surgery and with lots of google search, I decided to go for the surgery under local anaesthesia and being fully conscious. It was a mother’s choice for her precious pregnancy.

I cannot explain the fear I felt throughout the surgery. I was especially more scared because the Dr. had said it would be painful. I kept shivering during the surgery and the nurses kept hot blankets over me and a heater near my legs. I kept remembering my Lord’s name throughout reminding myself how He is merciful and doesnt do anything which is bad for us or beyond our capacity to bear. It took around 45 minutes for the entire thing and finally I was done.

I was relieved I bore the pain for my child and didn’t do anything that could have been dangerous for my pregnancy or child’s future.

I have been going to the hospital for daily dressings and I am in lots of pain. The wound is healing, praise to the Lord and the pain is settling day after day. 

I am just grateful this is over and my pregnancy is safe. After what happened and the fear we felt at the moment when we were deciding regarding the surgery, this baby has become even dearer. Funny thing is my Fil who always told my husband that he was worried for him for being childless and hence wanted him to remarry, did not bother to call us even once when we faced this grave difficulty while being pregnant with our dear child. His mom called us 50 times literally (I could paste pictures of screenshots of her call times).

So all the ladies who read this, please tell me. Did any of you face the lumps I faced from the PIO shots? I was quite okay until the 11th week and it only deteriorated afterwards. Usually women only take PIO shots until the 10th or 11th weeks so maybe because I was on them for such a long time I faced this? I dont know, I am just relieved that the obnoxious shots are over!!!!

Praising my Lord, now 12 weeks!!

Dear ladies,

First of all I love it and was truly touched when I found out my fellow bloggers were waiting for an update from my side since my last scan. I myself get concerned when either of you doesn’t blog for sometime and there is no update to satisfy my heart with so I start looking up for the person’s blog and look for signs of update hehe.I pray for all of you every morning to have your miracles and for your difficulties to end really soon with the Lord’s mercy.

So the update is Baby is now 12 weeks!!

We heard the lovely heartbeat and fell in love with how he or she was changing and flipping sides. Gosh too adorable!! The baby was sucking its thumb and looked like a little baby snuggled in a hammock! 

Please remember us in your prayers and you all are in mine. In about 4 weeks we will find out the gender when I will be 16 weeks, Lord willing.